Kahi Ankahi Feelings

The day you lost me  was the day I lost myself  when you didn't believe me when you doubted on me my Love,  after all the sleepless nights when you overlooked the tears  was the day you lost me..  I never wanted to leave you my Friend,  the day you lied to me  was the day you lost me   when you back-stabbed me,  when you cheated on me  was the day you lost me..  I never wanted to make you cry my Mom,  the day you left me was the day you lost me   I was the son of our Family, but when you called me daughter suddenly when you believed others over me was the day you lost me..  That was the day you lost me..  I never hated you my Haters, as the day you tried to put me down was the day I rose again when you underestimated me when you prayed for my failure I collected all of it, succeeded That was the day you lost me And I found myself, again...                                  -© Khan Khushboo

Sau Umeedein hai kai chahatein Har raah me sunai de teri aahatein Har khushi me chhupa hai dard kahi Sabhi yaadein tanha chaand se baat ti rahi..  Sau Raste hai magar tujh tak raah nahi Saari duniya hai magar ek tu hi nahi.. Mere har dua me sada tu hi Maa shamil rahi  Diya khuda ne sab kuc mujhe  par tere pyar se pichdi rahi Sau sawalein hai magar koi jawab nahi Saari duniya hai magar ek tu hi nahi..  Andhero mein raato ko  karwate badalti rahi Hua kab sawera nahi khabar  teri chahato ko tarasti rahi Sau hasratein hai magar tera sath nahi  Sari duniya hai magar ek tu hi nahi..  Jab bhi padi kadi dhoop mujh par  Tere anchal ko yaad karti rahi  Neend na aayi jab bhi raaton me  Teri loriya gungunate rahi Shama charo ore faili hai magar  Meri duniya roshan nahi Sara jahan hai magar ek tu hi nahi...                         -© Khan Khushboo

Her beautiful smile The way she looks at me Is the best what I like Her smile is like The Full moon light It does everything bright ! The Place where you sat For me is the best sight ! The jacket which you wore Is damn lucky,  You make everyone smile Is it real ? Or Something tricky Make my dreams come true Let's just Me and you, Us  Make my days blush Be mine my crush  Be mine my crush  I wanna be your dream boy Just be my dream girl  How to impress you Just give me an angle° Hey just stop it ! The habit of coming in my dreams Oh please ! I am in love  I smell fragnance in the streams Thanks to the gods They made you  Beautiful soul, unbelievable you Words are less to describe you  No limit just like sky blue !! Let's be together  Let's start journey new.......                                   -© Atulya Music

Late night talks Missing those long walks  With every success,  vodka on the rocks..  Cheering each other  on video calls..  When busy,  only the Gdmrng Gdnyt texts Planning when are we  meeting next Oh covid19!  WhatsApp calling is the best  Fighting on late replies,  leaving the rest..  On every fight,  those midnight calls  Meeting once a month  Near the highway waterfalls  Missing badly?  Again back to WhatsApp calls...                                                                  -© Khan Khushboo

Hum to sochte the ke  humne har din tumse nafrat ki hai phir kyu dil kehta hai ke iss nafrat me bhi humne tumse mohabbat ki hai..  Hum to sochte the ke  bhool jayenge tumhe dheere dheere par khud hairaan hai  apne sabr ka pehlu dekhkar itni shiddat se jo ibadat ki hai pal pal tumse mohabbat ki hai..  Hum to sochte the ke Reh lenge tere bina tujhe bhulane ki kasam jo khayi thi phir kyu iss dil ne  teri rehmat ki duaa ki hai iss nafrat me bhi tumse mohabbat ki hai..  Hum to sochte the ke  bewafa tum ho par mera dil hi jab mera na raha jis kadar isne zarre zarre se  tumse mohabbat ki hai pal pal tumse mohabbat ki hai..                                             -© Khan Khushboo

Badal jayenge itne andaaz mere Kabhi socha na tha Majboor teri chahat se haare Badal gaye hum.. Ab to na aayne ki zaroorat hai Na fikar zamane ki Mahobbat ne jo dekha hume Yu hi sawar gaye hum.. Sapne teri aankhon mai sajte hai To neendein meri ud jaati hai Kaise iss safar mai  Sang ho gaye hum.. Tu waha siskiya bhi le Aankhen bhar meri aati hai Iss kaise anjaan rishte se Jud Gaye hum.. Dhoop tujhe lagti hai to  Rooh meri Jal uth jati hai Parwane ki tarah  tabah ho gaye hum.. Aati hai tujhe hichkiya bhi To saans meri atak jaati hai Kaisa ye dor hai  Jisme bandh gaye hum.. Jab aati hai tujhpe koi baat To honth mere sil jaate hai Iss kaise kashmakash mai Kho gaye hum.. Ab to na paani ki talab hai Na zaroorat hai kisi aashiyane ki Tere baaho ki jannat mai  Tere hee ho gaye hum..                                   -© Khan Khushboo

Some loved me because they need me The fake words though cannot heal me Oh The Fake Promises usually they kill me I don't have words to speak The love I gave you just kicked me  You said You wore moonlight in Your eyes But there Is nothing right in your lies Because the silence you gave me Is because of how Beautifully and bad you treated me. Thank You for the gift The Silence you gave me The Silence you gave me.. I remember the morning coffee Which you used to give me How innocently you used to say kiss me The days are gone now Like the season changes its nature You changed your nature The one is now yours To whom you said stranger You broke the heart bravely Thank You for the gift The Silence you gave me The Silence you gave me..                                   -© Atulya Music

Jab thama tera hath to bhula bigdi baat,  Yaad aane lagi tere sang woh pehli barsaat Chahat hui iss qadar phir puch baitha tera saath Kabhi Kabhi lagta tha Tu paas aa rahi hai Iss dhoke mai jee rha tha  Na Mujhe saans aa rahi hai.. Kyu Teri Yaad Aaj bhi Sata rahi hai..  Dil ke panaho me bikhri si aahon me  leke jo baitha tha akele kayi din raat Tujhe kya pata the Jaana, kesi meri zaat Aaj bhi sajda karta hu  chahe Dhoop me ho jamaat Ninde meri haram karke  Yaadein khud so jati hai Pehla pyaar na milta Mujhko ye batati hai..  Kyu Teri Yaad Aaj bhi Satati hai..  Par bhula Na jo kiye waade the  pakke mere iraade the  tune mujhe samjha awaara  par sach pucho to tere deewane the Ab Tu Tham Ja yu satana band karde Nahi to meri jaan tere pass aa rahi hai..  Bewafa tu hai ya teri yaadein  Mujhko Yeh door le ja rahi hai Kyu Teri Yaad Aaj bhi Sata rahi hai..                                        - © Atulya & Khushboo

Chale The Ishq karne Dil ki dehliz pe dukho ko bula liya Aahat hui man mai  Chahat hui dil mai Humne Aapko andar basa liya Par kya pata tha  Yu bich raah mai mu mod jaaoge Hamara aashiyana cchod  Kahi Aur Bas jaaoge Hum To Chale the ishq karne Hume kya pata tha ki yu Daga kar jaaoge Hum to chale the ishq karne Hum to chale the ishq karne.. Bhull baith gaye ho lagta hai tum Wo kasme vaade jhoot kar baithe ho tum Diya haath humne thaamne ko Par ishq mai Dagabaazi kar baithe ho tum Dil Pukar kar rone laga  Ab to aasu bhi kehne lage Tham ja  Hawaye choo kar hume pyaar karne lagi Sharab chad kar aahe lene lagi Hum to chale the ishq karne Ab to zindagi bhi humein Baaho mai lipat rone lagi  Hume dekh na jaane kitne tarse Hum to chale the ishq karne Hum to chale the ishq karne.. Mai puchta hu pyaar se  Humse kya bhool ho gayi Hum to tere hawale the To phir tum humse kyo rooth gayi Humse kya hat hogayi Hamara dil ch

Kaise ye bataun tumhe mere liye kya ho tum.. Mere tarasti nigaahon ki nami ho tum, Berang zindagi me roshni ki kami ho tum, Kehte ho Bekadar kyu tum mujhe? Kaise ye bataun tumhe ke mere liye kya ho tum.. Mere awaaz ki surile raag ho tum, Mere aashiyane ko jalane wale aag ho tum, Kehte ho shama fir kyu mujhe? Kaise ye samjhaun tumhe ke mere liye kya ho tum.. Mere jism me behta hua khoon ho tum, Meri saans, diljaan ka sukoon ho tum, Tumhe aitbaar nahi kyu mujhpe? Kaise yakeen dilaun tumhe ke mere liye kya ho tum.. Mere labo pe khili muskan ki waje ho tum, Aankhon me sapne banke saje ho tum, Shikayat na jane fir kyu hai mujhse? Kaise roobaru karwaau mere liye kya ho tum..  Zindagi ki sabse haseen raaz ho tum, Meri pehli khoj or aakhri talaash ho tum, Bepanah mohabbat karke bhi kyu ruswa kar gaye mujhe??? Akhir Kaise ye bataau tumhe ke mere liye kya ho tum.....                                            -© Khan Khushboo

I started writing this story because it was unique, pure and down to the Earth. You'll not find this kind of love at this generation as it's so rare like Kohinoor, but the saddest part is that only I think this way but they never​ did.  It was March 2012 when they met, then became best friends and then soulmates. This continued as a long distance relationship for 4 years, then after a lot of ups and downs, they finally made it in person on his 27th birthday (year 2016). However, as they say that life never goes according to the plan.  It's not because he loved her less (he loved her more than anything else in his life), but because she always had to prove her loyalty to him. They've imagined their whole life with each other, but things changed when she stopped compromising...                                                                                                          -© Khan Khushboo Next Page-2

Yaad to wo bhi krti hogi Sath tha kabhi Shayad pyar wo bhi krti hogi Na jaane nazar kaisi lagi Jo alag hogye Shayad mere yaad mai na soti hogi Sochti to wo bhi hogi Sochti to wo bhi hogi Bus stand wali chai Class mai baithe isharo mai Karna daay baay Ankhon mai ankhen bhatakna Yu cchoti cchoti baato pe jhagadna Uska ruthna  Aur mera manana Nazro se masti krna thodi thodi Sochti to wo bhi hogi Sochti to wo bhi hogi Chup chup galliyo mai milna Aur uska mere liye sweter silna Uske chehre ka khilna Mera yu shayri likhna Aur usse izhar karna Saheliyo ko wo batati to zaroor hogi Kyuki  Sochti to wo bhi hogi  Sochti to wo bhi hogi Mausam barsaat Aur tera chalna saath Haatho mai haath Aur har mulakat  Lage Pehli mulakat Dil ki baat Uska yaad rakhna meri har baat Pachtati to wo bhi hogi Sochti to wo bhi hogi Sochti to wo bhi hogi                            ©- Atulya Music

Koi lutane k liye peeta hai to koi  khud loot jane ke liye Koi ayaashi ke liye peeta hai to koi  gham ko bhulane ke liye Hamara bhi naata gham se  jud gaya hai kuch is tarah ki Aaj humein bhi peene ko dil karta hai.. Dastak deti hai mohabbat khwaab ban kar Fir yaad ban ke dafan ho jaati hai Sookh gayi hai humare aashiyane ki har kali ki Aaj saare khwaab mitane ko jee karta hai  Aaj humein bhi peene ko dil karta hai.. Kaash ye dhadkan hi na hoti to Dil ka silsila na hota ishq Aashique badnaam na hota Kaash ke ye kaash bhi na bana hota  To ye kaash kehne me itna takleef na hota Aaj saare yaad bhula dene ko jee karta hai ke Aaj humein bhi peene ko dil karta hai.. Roohbaru hai saanse teri hamari mohabbat se Fir bhi eitbaar nahi tumhe apni chahat pe Hamari duniya ho tum fir kyu shikayat hai tumhe hum se  Aaj sab kuch bhulakar tumhe  rooh me utaar lene ko jee karta hai Aaj humein bhi peene ko dil karta hai.. Rooohh ab chh